Revealing Transformation. Part 02.

Did you remember about the continuing transformation? Here it goes haha. 

So I was struggling with obesity for years and years. I tried to slim down but it was like doin yo-yo. Up down. Up down. So frustrating. Until one day I meet again with Roma after few weeks never meet her. (Few weeks as in like two and half months. Ahahha.) We both are same la. Same big. Haha. 

Then suddenly she said she lost 18 kilos!!!! I was like OMG!!! 

Here lemme give her "progress" pic down here. 

Yes it is awesome indeed!!! 

After that my journey begin!!! I was around 75-77 kgs when I'm starting. 

I do the diet and cycling at first. And losing 2-3 kgs per week at the first attempt. 

I was so excited. Then I continue doing it. 

I still bailing up and down becos I'm actually very glutton. Haha. Cannot help it. 

But after awhile I feel I must put effort into this. Once and for all. Changing my lifestyle. So I did. 

And in four month I've lost 12 kilos!! 

65-66kg right now. And it's not done yet!! My target is to be 60 kg in Dec and 55 in Feb 2014. 

I'm gonna update abt it again in Dec and Feb. So I can keep track whether its success or not haha. 

Wish me luck okeee!?

Windows Live Essential 2011

I’m trying to write this post with windows live Essential. 2011. yes 2011 edition. Haha!
I should be fun, or it COULD be fun, I guess. LOL
And here goes the rambling, as usual. wink
So yeah what’s with today? My friend say that he read my blog and he kinda like it. Because i write slice of my life. Of course la. It’s a personal blog so you cannot expect you got some kind of fabulous tutorial or new psych formula, riiight? hehehe.
Today is SOOOO HOT and make me feel so sick and unwell. When I tell it on my status, one of them reply with “don bluff. u just wanna cheat from ur diet again” And i was like “OMG MAYBE YOU RIGHT” I shouldnt give upppp!!!
I really wanna lose some kilos before October. Why with Oct? Why must Oct? BECAUSEEE It will be my BIRTHDAYY YAYYY. And I think it will be the best birthday present EVER. From ME to MYSELF. I never been any thin or feel very light before!! So yesssss I really want it. Pray for me to stay away from KFC, Burgers, and or any processed food!! More vegs, More fish and chicken brest without skin, More low calories fruit, and you will be there, Mash! Definitely!  Omg this face windows essential make everytime i type : and D is so fricckin annoying, like it laugh straight at me see what i mean?

Initially I didnt wanna write abt these things. But lets post this and see if its good enough to be my future blog tools. CROSSING FINGERS. There is alot of stuff I wanna write hereee!! But the break down mood, the weather, no time, always been my fav excuses! hahaha! See you soon on another post ;p

Inconsistency

Inconsistent. 

People don't like other people to be inconsistent but I think I've been inconsistent and treat this blog unfair. I already tell her to at least write on her everyday, or I will add some foodies stuff. But it seems none of it become any realization. Of course that followed with so many excuse (i.e; I'm tired, its late, ah I will do it tomorrow) and procrastination. Ahaha. 

I was think about it and I think it's getting worse. I delay do stuff that I think doesn't have deadline, like doing errands, or re arrange my room. Yeah now my room is a freakin mess cos of this procrastinating stuff, and DISTRACTION is actually my number one enemy. I feel i have this undiagnosed ADHD when i was kid. I'm so easily distracted. Like, if you talkin to me, you will realize i keep jumping back and forth to random topics. Some people say I'm interesting and not boring but some say "stick to this topic we talking about, will you?" LOL 

Bad, bad, bad. I know. Then again my friend will say "you being too hard on yourself" butbutbutbutttttt, I dont think I am. IN FACT, I think I PAMPER MYSELF SO MUCH with LACK of discipline (esp with my diet im soooooooo gluttttton), with my decision (I wanna do this but I can do that too, so i do this and that half each). I use to be a person with big determination and big will (yeah of course its also come with big ego). Now when someone having less ego, everything is flat and wavy. haha. Everything is so frickin flexible. 

Nothin to chase on, and also nothing to cherish on. Bad bad. 

As I realize it comes with my diet. I want to do this but my mind keep telling it there will still be TOMORROW. what is tomorrow? It's the day AFTER today!!! aaaaaaaaand, today is EVERYDAYYYY! Do you see how it become the devil circle? ahahha. Oh man, I'm 28 but still feel like a loser. Everytime I meet new people online and they say how they enjoying their life, and they're very passionate about what their work. Somehow some part of me dies everytime I hear that. How I waste my time. aot doin something I dont like. WAIT, why is this post become so emoooo? *slapself*  

Get up stand up and sit up! Eh I mean get up! and no no no no emo allowed! come one, where is that cheerful bubbly character that you used to have, mash? And you was and optimistic and not cynic girl. When did you become this gloomy grey colored sceptic and cynic girl? 

You can change yes you can! 

FOCUS and less distraction!

And as I write this post there is someone that suddenly msg me and sayin they know me from this blog! Waoo thats awesome. Becos this blog is practically almost like a tomb and I come and go writing it here. So Okay I decide, I will write post twice a week, and less boring which maybe will be filled with eithrd food pics or MY PICS MWAHAHHA. *slapped* 

PS: See how much this post describing how ADHD I am ahhaha. So frickin RANDOMMM.