Inconsistency

Inconsistent. 

People don't like other people to be inconsistent but I think I've been inconsistent and treat this blog unfair. I already tell her to at least write on her everyday, or I will add some foodies stuff. But it seems none of it become any realization. Of course that followed with so many excuse (i.e; I'm tired, its late, ah I will do it tomorrow) and procrastination. Ahaha. 

I was think about it and I think it's getting worse. I delay do stuff that I think doesn't have deadline, like doing errands, or re arrange my room. Yeah now my room is a freakin mess cos of this procrastinating stuff, and DISTRACTION is actually my number one enemy. I feel i have this undiagnosed ADHD when i was kid. I'm so easily distracted. Like, if you talkin to me, you will realize i keep jumping back and forth to random topics. Some people say I'm interesting and not boring but some say "stick to this topic we talking about, will you?" LOL 

Bad, bad, bad. I know. Then again my friend will say "you being too hard on yourself" butbutbutbutttttt, I dont think I am. IN FACT, I think I PAMPER MYSELF SO MUCH with LACK of discipline (esp with my diet im soooooooo gluttttton), with my decision (I wanna do this but I can do that too, so i do this and that half each). I use to be a person with big determination and big will (yeah of course its also come with big ego). Now when someone having less ego, everything is flat and wavy. haha. Everything is so frickin flexible. 

Nothin to chase on, and also nothing to cherish on. Bad bad. 

As I realize it comes with my diet. I want to do this but my mind keep telling it there will still be TOMORROW. what is tomorrow? It's the day AFTER today!!! aaaaaaaaand, today is EVERYDAYYYY! Do you see how it become the devil circle? ahahha. Oh man, I'm 28 but still feel like a loser. Everytime I meet new people online and they say how they enjoying their life, and they're very passionate about what their work. Somehow some part of me dies everytime I hear that. How I waste my time. aot doin something I dont like. WAIT, why is this post become so emoooo? *slapself*  

Get up stand up and sit up! Eh I mean get up! and no no no no emo allowed! come one, where is that cheerful bubbly character that you used to have, mash? And you was and optimistic and not cynic girl. When did you become this gloomy grey colored sceptic and cynic girl? 

You can change yes you can! 

FOCUS and less distraction!

And as I write this post there is someone that suddenly msg me and sayin they know me from this blog! Waoo thats awesome. Becos this blog is practically almost like a tomb and I come and go writing it here. So Okay I decide, I will write post twice a week, and less boring which maybe will be filled with eithrd food pics or MY PICS MWAHAHHA. *slapped* 

PS: See how much this post describing how ADHD I am ahhaha. So frickin RANDOMMM. 

Revealing Transformation. Part01

Make up! 
Do you know make up (Cosmetic) is practically woman best friend (enemy sometimes if you have sensitive skin)? Most of woman having this complicated hate and love relationship with make up. Because to applying make up you must wake up earlier or get ready earlier (before the boys). Not to mention, for applying make up and get the result we (woman) want, we must maintain our face skin. Which more skin care, drink lots of water, and do fiber diet so the face contour will be perfect for being a blank canvas ready to paint with the make ups. 
Beauty isn't come for instance u know. Only very lucky girls that born pretty. Most of us born average looking. This where make up take part. 
oh of course, never under estimating a HARD WILL of someone. haha. 

For applying make up and finding your own make up style, you need to be persistent. I repeat, STUBBORN.  You cannot expect to be succeed in your first make up apply attempt. You must try and try again. Learn about your face structure and contour. Because everyone is special. Everyone is different. Even when people said smoky eyes is definitely good applied to anyone, i found it doesn't look any good on me. Seriously. 
It depends on what style you like most. You like when you look cool, abit masculine touch, or natural, or elegant beauty maybe. I like my make up to be cute. Just like Japanese idol (who confuse most people about how old are they actual age is) and of course it doesnt come in one trying attempt, girl. I remember when I was newbie with this make up thing, I only have ONE liquid eyeliner. I don't have any other things like lipgloss or even a lose powder!! 
I try to apply and practising my eyeliner skill non stop. I mean seriously apply-wipe -apply -wipe, and at that time I dont even have any make up remover! So I wipe it with baby oil (which resulting very bad cos the baby oil isnt helping much) and I also try minyak kayu putih. (That time i thought I'm gonna be blind. hurts like hell. hahaha) 
But I'm glad i never stop. Never give up. 

Maybe some of you wondering how far make up can change someone face features. Some of you might already seen some transformation on youtube videos. 

Now I'm inseparable with my make-up. It doesn't mean I do my make up everyday. I usually not wearing make up when I go to work. Safer that way. 
But I use my make-up as therapy when I feel down or losing my self confidence! When I feel gloomy and I feel alive again!! 

I write this post just to encourage all girls who think you are ugly (include myself hahaha) to have a faith in yourself. You can change. If you want. (That's backfiring me with my body fat mass) 
I myself need to improve my weight. I promise I'm so gonna write things about my transformation when I lose some kgs!! :D 

Oh, if you notice I put "Part 01" On the tittle. Yes it does mean it will be more to come about this silly girl transformation. 


This is the latest pic i taken while doin my makeup. So every girls out there, everyone can change. Just the matter about you willing enough to do it or not. Keep positive and everything possible!!!! 

The Make-Up Transformation 

I hope you enjoying this time post! TBC to Part2 Someday!! 

See you again soon!! Cheeers!